OFFICIALLY BEEN MATCHED WITH KAI IN CHINA’S SYSTEM!!!!!
OFFICIALLY BEEN MATCHED WITH KAI IN CHINA’S SYSTEM!!!!!
What a month!
I’m telling you, this week started out ROUGH! I wonder how many people can relate? I actually wrote this BLOG POST talking about just being tired of pain! I know I’m not alone. I know people have rough weeks all the time, but this one, for whatever reason, just started out rough.
I take that back, the last 2-3 weeks have been on the rougher side. It kind of started on October 2nd. That was Thrive’s THREE anniversary and to be extremely honest, I had a very ROUGH morning that day.
Typically, our anniversary’s and big Sunday’s are my favorite, but something was going on inside my head and my heart and my soul. As soon as 8:30am hit, wave and wave of amazingly hard discouragement and disappointment just kept hitting me.
It was unlike anything I have ever experienced.
Listen, I’ve been a Pastor long enough to know that its not an easy job. I get that. Satan is attacking, People attack, Life attacks and thats all before you wake up some days!
For whatever reason, October 2nd was really hard. Those lying voices in my head kept reminding me of all the people who have left Thrive, the people who have said negative stuff about me and the Church, all the initiatives we haven’t been able to do yet because of finances and then the 1 or 2 super colossally bad decisions I’ve made while being Thrive’s Pastor. Yes, I’ve made more. A LOT MORE. But, there are 1-2 that really stick out.
Here’s what happened though in my life:
Here’s what I mean. God provided! He brought healing! He brought Peace! He brought love! He brought hope! The list below is just the short list of the amazing BLESSINGS God has brought my way. As you struggle with the rough moments, hold on, God has something for you! He has beauty that you can’t even imagine. He has healing that you can’t even imagine.
ONE…A Found Hand Written Note in my Bible. It was left by an amazing Thriver and I have read her worlds over and over again! Such a blessing!
TWO…Glasses for Bekah. A friend from TX messaged us last month and said she would love to bless Bekah with new glasses! Such a blessing!
THREE…A Car. Yeah, no joke. A miracle. Both are cars are old and held together with duck tape. A dear friend gave us a car and said it was the best way they know possible for helping with our adoption. Just UNREAL! Such a blessing!
FOUR…Gift for Pastor Appreciation. There is an amazing couple at Thrive who just bless so many people. Well, they gave me a gift for Pastor Appreciation month and with it, I was able to get some of the things my kids needed for school. Such a blessing!
FIVE…Gift card for Shoes. A wonderful couple at church stopped me a few backs and gave me a gift card for a new pair of shoes. With 4 kids and two of them having PKU, shoes and clothes are on the low priority list for Tracie and I! Such a blessing!
SIX…My parents. Yeah, I could fill blog post after blog post about all the amazing ways my parents help us all the time. They are just always there! Such a blessing!
SEVEN…A mattress for Bekah. We’ve needed a mattress for 3-4 months for Bekah. There was unfortunate accident on her mattress with our cat. Last night, a dear friend texted Tracie out of the blue saying that she has a mattress for Bekah! Such a blessing!
EIGHT…Approve, Certified and Sealed Dossier. This was HUGE. Many of our forms were set to expire this week before they were more than 6 months old for adoption process. Tracie, because of the amazing gift of a dear friend, was able to go to downtown Chicago and take the forms to the Chinese Consulate and get them sealed! Such a blessing!
NINE…A trip to Chicago for Tracie. One of our best friends in the world, made it possible for her to take Tracie to Chicago to get our paperwork to the Consulates. It never would have happened without her help! Such a blessing!
This is the easiest and simplest fundraiser ever. We have two identical puzzles. They are pictures of Kai and our family. We’re asking that people sponsor a piece or two or three. Really, whatever amount they would like and that coincides with the puzzle piece. When someone sponsors a piece, we send it to them in the mail with a picture of the puzzle.
Then, we write their name on the other puzzle piece. When its completed, we will frame it and put it in Kai’s room for him to see all the people that helped bring him home!
We have been blown away and people are continuing to sponsor pieces.
Friends from all the country! Churches! Kids! Students! Its just been unreal!
Even though the month started rough. Even though this week started rough. God has provided. God has brought healing. God has reminded me of his love. God has showed up time and time again!
If you’re going through a rough time, hang in there! Stay close to Jesus! He will get you through.
‘Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest’ ~Jesus
Yes, this title and post is much more personal and whiny than I try to be on my blog. I try to work very hard to keep my blog very positive. But, yesterday was a classic bad back day for me and all day long I found myself saying…
Unless its super hot and my back is very lose, outside of that, then I’m typically dealing with some sort of back pain. Either a little pain or a lot of pain. It’s been that way most of my life.
Well, because I’m not very smart. It started when I was young and was hit by a car. Then, through my 20’s I really didn’t take care of my back. It worsened in my 30’s and for some reason, when we planted Thrive Church, it went from bad to horrible. I had surgery in Jan of 2014 to remove a disc and that took care of the sciatica, but depending on the day, it can be either manageable or it can be down right ridiculous. Bending is out of the question. And, every time I lift something with even a little weight to it, my back could start screaming at me.
I try not to complain.
I try not to dwell on it.
I try not to let it drag me down.
I try to keep going.
I try to fight through it.
But, wow, some days. And, I know so many people have pain so much worse than mine.
And, I know some of the possible solution is on me, that’s the kicker! The solution?
We all know being overweight does not help your back and I am dreadfully overweight!
Now, before you start saying…‘just eat salad and start running’. Trust me, I have heard those a lot over the years! And, yes, I am trying to eat more salad. I have actually taken huge steps this last month. I cut out pop. I cut out some things that are very bad and I am feeling much better!
And, I can’t run. I would run. I love to run! My last run was in June of 2012 and I ran 10 miles! See, I love to run. But, I can’t. I love to do cross fit. I can’t. Anything that involves jarring…yeah, I could be laying on my back for a week.
So, I have been in this continuous hard and painful cycle for 4 years. I start to lose weight, everything feels better, than the stress of life comes (having a big family, financial pressure, leading a church) and sometimes when my back feels better I push it to hard and bam, I’m back to def con 5 back pain.
When I hit def con 5 back pain, I’m done. Getting through the day is a win for me. Bending, standing, walking, sitting, putting on socks, it’s all hard. That’s actually an understatement! It’s painfully hard.
Sunday’s at Church, when I hit def con 5 back pain is unreal. The walking, standing, preaching, moving, it’s just hard.
Why I’m typing all this, I don’t know.
I just got to the place yesterday where I started to whine and cry to God and then I found this amazing video on youtube about Job. Put a lot in perspective.
I know Paul prayed for his pain to be taken away. I know David cried out to God.
So, I’m crying out to God. I am going to do my best to take care of the body that God has blessed me with. I am going to keep making better eating decisions. I am going to work hard to loosen and strengthen the muscles around my back that don’t want to bend.
And, I’ll just keep putting one foot in front of the other.
If you’re in pain. My heart goes out to you. I’m praying for you. Let me know, so I can pray!
It’s been an amazing THREE years! 160 people have been baptized kind of amazing!
This is a big one for me personally, because this past year was hard. I think satan threw everything he could at us and it wasn’t enough! We just kept moving forward! We just kept helping people find and follow Jesus. We just kept seeing amazing life change!
Today is a special day!
I’m so thankful!
I can’t wait to celebrate God with my Thrive family!
I do believe the BEST is YET to COME!!
Ok, I just re-read the title and I cringed. Why? Because to my core, I’m a people person!
I love people! I love their stories! I love getting to know people! I love seeing God work in their lives! I love seeing Jesus’ love envelope them! I love people.
I don’t ever want to Unfollow or Unfriend anyone on Facebook.
Here’s what I’ve learned when it comes to Facebook in my life. Too much Facebook is not good. Too much negativity is not good. Too much drama is not good. You put them all together and it’s a…
It’s just not good for my soul to constantly be filled with all that trash.
So, I unfollow people.
Now, it’s their right to do that! I’m not saying they shouldn’t. It’s their page and they can do what they want. I choose a different way. I wrote this blog post at the beginning of the year about how I approach using Facebook. I know its a bit radical for some, but I personally think the Kingdom of God would benefit from more followers of Jesus using their page to represent Him!
And, I unfriend people.
This really hasn’t happened much. Even when people have spoken poorly of me and bashed me, I waited for them to unfriend me.
Really, the only reason I would unfriend someone is if they really bashed someone I cared for. Or, if they really bashed the ‘Church’.
Ok, that’s not true. A few years ago I realized I had thousands of friends on Facebook and I didn’t know hardly any of them. So, I went through and unfriended about a 1000 and got tired and I stopped!
The reality is, I know that people have unfollowed me. At times, I have posted way too much or I have been way over the top about how excited I am about my church and what God is doing there. People have unfollowed me. It’s ok.
And, people have unfriended me and that’s ok.
The reality is, I have found that this is important for my own soul. This may not be important for yours. But, my hope is that people will stop filling Facebook with trash.
We’ll see. I’m hopeful.
I have heard similar stories a hundred or more times, probably more.
‘Yeah, life has been hard, so I just don’t have time for Church’
‘My life is falling a part and I blame God’
‘Church just doesn’t fit with my crazy life right now’
‘I’m upset at a decision the Pastor made and so I’m going to find another church’
‘People look at me with judgmental eyes at Church’
Totally get this from folks who are far from Jesus.
But, I’m just shocked at the amount of people who say they follow Jesus and they fall into one of these categories.
Now, before you think I’m going all Judgmental. I’ve been there! I was once SUPER CRAZY STUPID burned out on Church. I was. I said some of those reasons. So, I get this all too well!
I don’t know what’s happening in your life right now. I don’t know how hard it is. I don’t know if you’re ticked off at your Pastor. I don’t know if somebody in your church has excluded you. I don’t know if you lost your job and you blame God.
Whatever the reason. Don’t give up. That’s the easy thing to do.
Jump back in to your relationship with God. He’s ready and waiting! He can’t wait to immerse you in His love.
Jump back in to Christ’s bride. The Church is waiting for you and needs you.
So, today is my birthday.
I am 41.
To be honest, last year’s birthday was pretty hard. Actually, it was awful! Not that I turned 40, but because this year has been a tough year.
Regardless, another year, another birthday and it has me thinking. I’ll be 50 in 9 years. I have 9 years to accomplish many of the things that have been on my bucket list. So, here goes. A little warning, some are crazy selfish!
Today is Thrive’s 151st Sunday!
I celebrate every Sunday because I know how hard it has been to get to this point! I think many folks take it for granted, but I’m just not going to do that!
I appreciate every Sunday! Today is no different!
1. Because I believe in Thrive’s Vision and Mission with every once of my HEART!
2. Because I love the Staff and Elders at Thrive!
3. Because I love the people of Thrive Church!
4. Because I love how we do Church.
5. Because I love the volunteers at Thrive!
6. Because I love the students at Thrive!
7. Because I love the risks we take as a Church!
8. Because I love the families at Thrive Church!
Today is no different! I love my Church and I can’t wait to see what God does this morning at Thrive!
I hope you will join us at either 9 or 1015 at Celebration Cinema!