He Came with Nothing…the Raitz Adoption Journey

I will probably never forget that moment. I prayed about that moment over and over and over again for a year. 

It all seems so surreal now. I looked out the window and there he was. I totally understand that not everyone understands adoption. I didn’t at one point. 

I get that there are skeptics. But, after going through the adoption process, which is long and hard. Going through all the fundraising, which we needed to do and was so completely exhausting. That moment brought an avalanche of LOVE like I’ve never experienced. 

I mean…he was there! I was about to hold him. I was about to see Tracie hold him. I was about to touch him. We were about to give him a new life. 

A New Life. 

Gosh, that sounds familiar doesn’t it? Especially if you’re a person who follows Jesus. 

‘God decided in advance to ADOPT us into His own family by bringing us to himself through Jesus Christ. This is what he wanted to do, and it gave him great pleasure’ ~Ephesians 1:5

Our time with Kai at the Cival Affairs was amazing. He laughed. He played with us. He hugged us. He was ticklish. We have watched dozens of ‘Gotcha’ day videos where families get their children and it seems like 8 out of 10 have super reluctant and very tearful children. Kai was not. Now, we have a lot ahead of us and I know those tears will come. 

But he just marched into our lives and totally captured our hearts. 

I messaged a friend yesterday and I told him that the pain was worth it. Dealing with the negative voices was worth it. The ups and downs were worth it. 

The avalanche of LOVE we received made it all worth it! 

The avalanche of LOVE that Kai will receive made it all worth it! 

BUT…

I couldn’t sleep last night. There is something that I have been struggling with all night. 

When Kai walked through the door at the Cival Affairs office, he literally came with nothing. 
NOTHING. 

Let me take that back. He had clothes on his back and his orphanage sent a small box of his special food for his PKU. 

No suitcase. No favorite toys. No blanket. No bear. No ball. No outfits. No hat. No favorite stuffed animal. 

For some reason that’s just tough for me to swallow as his dad. It’s tough for me to handle as a provider. 

And I know someone will read this and say…’no duh, he was an orphan’, but regardless, he deserved more. 

I guess though now, he has more than just a few belongings. 

He has a New Life. He has a Family. He has a Mom and Dad. He has older siblings who can’t wait for him to get home. He has grandparents and aunts and uncles and cousins. He has a Small Group Community. He has a Church Family. He has his own bedroom. His own bed. His own toys. 

He will have incredible care for his PKU. 

He will be loved with an avalanche of love. 

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4 thoughts on “He Came with Nothing…the Raitz Adoption Journey

  1. That is absolutely a heart wrenching thing…to see a child with nothing. Our youngest came with a pink plastic garbage bag that had a few sad pieces of very old looking candy in it. He carried it everywhere. He slept with it. For weeks. All he had clutched tightly in his little hand as if holding onto it somehow let him hold on to all he had ever known. It was gut wrenching. It undid us. You are right that Kai now has gained SO much…. yet at a cost. I’m so glad you already know that. How much he has already lost in such a very short time. And now we pray all the riches in Christ for both Kai and your family.

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